Monthly Archives: January 2014

I hate cancer.

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Today, I got news that a friend in another state lost her battle with cancer.

As cancers go, her Fight was both long and way too short. She was diagnosed with a type of sarcoma about 18 months ago. There were surgeries and radiation and chemo and wheelchairs and walkers and canes. Weeks away from home, in the hospital as she fought for her life. As she fought for more life with her husband and her children.

The prognosis was bad, then better and just a few short weeks ago, good.

Just 6 weeks ago, she had a check up.

NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE.

Just earlier this week she was throwing out ideas for the tattoo she would get to cover her scars, and how she could add to it each year, in an evolving celebration of Life.

just 3 days ago she posted that she was battling wicked migraines.

And today she is gone.

My heart breaks.

For her husband, her kids, family and friends.

And in raw primal fear, my gut wrenches.

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Goodbye to a Great Year!!!

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2013 ended in the most dramatic fashion.

Cancer is a big, ugly, invasive, terrifying, shattering word.

It would be easy to let Cancer define the year.

And it would be a damn shame.

2013 was a year to remember.

Texas, New Mexico, Arizona, Colorado, Kansas, Iowa, Minnesota, North Dakota, South Dakota, Idaho, Wyoming, Montana, Alaska.

After so many years of talking about the many wonders, finally….

There is no picture that can convey the feeling of standing on at the edge of the Grand Canyon. (And no postcard can capture the fear in a mother’s heart as her children get a little too close to the drop off)

And no travel writer can adequately express the joy of retirement planning over endless pots of camp coffee with a dearest friend.

And no one on earth could ever have predicted North Dakota would thrill us with a speedboat and kneeboard.

After too many years too far away, the time spent with my family seemed less like reality and more like a really wonderful dream. Visits from, and visits to, were too short, too few, and completely fantastic.

In 2013, football captured my heart. As Kjell stood on the sidelines, strong and ready, (next year he will play),those Edison Eagles became my team.

Kjell changed in 2013, gone is my little boy and in his place is this incredible young man. One who makes good choices. A young man who has made a group of friends, the kind of friends one has for a lifetime.

2013 will be remembered as a year of success for Broder. Awards and accolades were showered upon him for academic prowess and his brief (prior to surgery) wrestling days proved he has what it takes to be among the best.

2013 was the year that my sweet Sunny became a warrior princess. Conquering her academic world was not enough, she worked to earn her green belt in Taekwondo, moving forward with quiet determination.

2013 was the tipping point for our marriage. This is the year in which we passed the 1/2 way mark. More than 1/2 our lives have been spent together.

2013 will always be the year that Broder was diagnosed with cancer.

2013 will always be a year in which we lived our lives with abundant enthusiasm.

2013 will be remembered as a great year.

Because it was.